When I was growing up, with my mind inspired and set on fire by the books I read, I dreamt of going to sea on my own yacht. As I grew and did different jobs and learn different skills I would think to myself “this will come in handy when I have my boat”. About five years ago I decided that it was time and began reading and researching all I could get my hands on and saved all the money I earned. Nearly four years ago I made the leap, jumped on a plane and found Kuhela. Since then I have sailed the many miles from Florida to New Zealand and have explored many places in between and accomplished things i never thought i was capable of. Now I am sitting here, writing about all this in past tense and sitting on the other side of that adventure and looking to what the future holds. In the strange paradox of looking back it was a lifetime long and over in the blink of the eye. I'm so glad i have written and recorded it so that i can relive and remember all the little memories that fade and blur with time. Since arriving in NZ I have spent a lot of time pondering the next move and what direction I want to move life in.
To be honest I had in some ways become reliant on the work and keeping busy on board to keep my from having to think about this next phase, for the last couple months of the trip it was in the back of my mind, and I just kept as busy as I could so not to think about it. Working and being flat out, organizing things on board had become a habit and I got sucked in pretty deep to it. I would be busy from the time my eyes opened in the morning to when they finally shut at night, and sometimes not even sleep could stop the constant working and churning of my mind. After I made the decision to head to Taurnanga I have felt the momentum of things beginning to flow again and see glimpses of whats next in my minds eye. Sometimes all you have to do is pick a direction and begin to take the next steps and things fall into place.
One of the biggest things I have been pondering on has been where to next for Kuhela and I. Personally I feel a deep need to settle a bit, I have been traveling for so long and there has been so much movement and change in my life that I really feel the need for some routine and stability again. There are other areas of myself that I want to develop and other areas that I want to learn new skills in. Even while in the marina, there is always work to do to keep Kuhela looking the way she deserves, and sitting in port is not what she is set up to do. After thinking on it very deeply I have decided its time to move on to the next life project/goal (still not sure what that is fully yet) and to do this I have decided to put Kuhela on the Market to free me up to move in this direction.
This has been a hard decision, but I feel it is the right one in my spirit. I feel like I have accomplished what I set out to do, and am so much better off for it. I have achieved the biggest goal I have ever set for myself, and have learnt so much along the way. I brought something to life that started as a spark so many years ago and I am proud of myself for that. I am stoked for the things I did well and blessed by the things I have learnt from and will improve on. Kuhela was my classroom and my university, the ocean my tutor and professor and the friends that joined me my mentors and mirrors of myself. I have experienced amazing highs and lows on this trip and have had the opportunity to explore the world and myself, and am a better man for it.
I will continue to live on board and keep Kuhela ready to go to sea again, and will wait for the right person to come along to take her on her next adventure. I would love to see her back up in the islands in the next couple years and continue her cruising. I won’t be passing her on to just anyone. We will see what comes and will continue to trust my intuition with this. It feels surreal to be even writing this, but again, it does feel like the right next move. As far as after that, who knows? I am just about to start work here in NZ, I am loving the exploring and outdoors, and will definitely be here till she sells, then reassess where I'm at. I think at that point I will make a decision between staying here and heading back to West Oz. who knows what life has in store, but I am started to get excited for what’s next.
Huge thanks to everyone of the people that helped me, believed in me, inspired me, offered words of encouragement and joined me on this amazing journey, both on board and on the blog. This was a joint effort between so many people, and I'm so stoked to have been a part of it. I will keep on writing and exploring and see where life takes me. Got a few ideas floating around in my head and looking forward to getting creative with these.
If you know the right person who wants to explore the pacific in a beautiful boat, send them my way.